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The past week I've been sleeping too little. On the one hand I've been going to bed a bit too late, on the other I've woken up every night to help Marli and Dana for an hour after midnight. All in all I've been getting five to six hours of sleep each night, with me oversleeping two times already...
So what do I do on Thursday night? Right, I stay awake until midnight, when it's time to feed Dana! ^_^; Yes, tonight I'll get four hours of sleep... Doh!
No, I haven't been playing video games! Instead, me and Marli have been playing with Lego! :) Today our early Christmas presents came in and we just couldn't leave them boxed. Marli got to build
Market street and
Green grocer, while I will be building the
Cafe corner over the next few days.
These boxes are really quite spectacular and some of the parts are really ingeniously designed. The "hotel" sign in my model is a nice example.
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About three weeks ago we started her on a regular daily schedule with feedings every four hours and a strict beddy-bye time after the 1900 feeding. This worked out wonderfully with a minimum of fuss.
Unfortunately Dana's changed her rhythm which has resulted in her crying a lot more than before. Now it's like clockwork that she'll cry and cry after her 0700 feeding unless Marli gives her complete attention. No pacifiers will help for long, nor will ignoring the crying. Nope... She needs to be in bed with mommy until 1100 for her to remain relaxed and quiet. A similar thing happens when I come home around four-ish. She'll wake up and remain restless until 1900.
I wonder what brought these changes on. Hmmm, could it have to do with the fact that I started work again last week? I guess that -is- a big difference in her daily schedule... *ponders*
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Sssh! I'm quietly typing this on my iPhone, while Marli is asleep next to me :)
Yesterday Marli was dismissed from the hospital and we were allowed to go home. Of course I was the stereotypical, wishy-washy father so at first I forgot the parking slip, then I forgot my wallet and then I didn't have any cash for the hostess' bill. All in all it took an hour just to get out of there :D
Around two we were greeted by our temp homecare nurse Anouk, from
Partula. Anouk got down to business right away and was a bit of a whirlwind about the house. While I was away doing some much needed shopping with my mom, Anouk helped Marli with the feeding and bathing of our daughter, meanwhile dispensing huge amounts of useful information. It was a bit too much to take in, but since Anouk's a loudish and cheery woman it was fun nonetheless. :)
Tonight went better thAn expected. Where the nights in the hospital were irregular, iratic and filled with crying, tonight had a steady rhytm to it! *glee* This rhytm feels good and allows us three hour periods pfsleep between one hour blocks of baby-maintenance. All in all I reckon I'll be able to get five to six hours of sleep on working days. I guess I'll manage that for a while.
Now... It's time for breakfast! >3
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baby
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bed
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home
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Almost precisely three months after the last hyperventilation I've had one again. I woke somewhere around 0100 from Marli leaving the room because she couldn't sleep. At the same time I became aware of a tingling sensation in my lips and arms: the onset of the real "burning" attack (sounds like on of those superpowers from an anime ^_^ "SUPA BAAHNIN ATTAKKU GO!").
I reckon tonight's occurrence was linked to yesterday's stress.
Of course it sucked that I was saying goodbye to some great colleagues. Paul and Nico were the best managers I've had in years and the rest of my team are just a great bunch of guys. But aside from that there was also some hassle with colleagues from Snow, whom I'd pissed off mightily by quitting for a new job without telling them. I've talked it over with one of them (my field manager), but I expect at least some pain from two or three others when I drop by the Snow office for the last time. The prospect of that visit isn't a very happy one and causes me some anxiety.
You see, some would say that what I did was an assholeish and selfserving move; and I would agree with them. I had decided that I'd needed to be a bit greedy and an asshole (read: thinking strictly business, weighing and measuring gain versus losses, minimizing the risks only for me) in order to provide the best for my family. IMNSHO it is generally not a good idea to tell your boss that you're looking for a new job until you've found a new one and signed the contract and most business folks in my direct circle agree. So that's what I did.
I could've told Snow beforehand, but that would have impacted the clients I get assigned, my salary and my relations with the people in the company. And that would've gone on until I'd finally found the job I wanted. In my case this took five months, so that would've sucked pretty much. Seriously, why screw up a running contract when you don't even have a new one yet? I need to provide for a family and I can't do that if my employer wants me out. Hence the reason that I don't tell them that -I- want out. There's nothing they could've done to keep me onboard anyway, because once I make up my mind to leave somewhere I will. As I said a few weeks ago I'd lost touch with the essence of the company over a year ago. I just wasn't feeling comfortable anymore.
*sigh* I'd better go and get dressed for grocery shopping. I've demanded that Marli stay at home and in bed seeing how she hasn't had a wink of sleep tonight.
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The past two weeks I've been sleeping awfully. I get enough sleep, but I guess the quality's just not alright. *yawn* I reckon it's got to do with the change in Marli's schedule (what with her not working anymore) and the nervousness for becoming a father.
*yawn* I woke up around 03:30 this morning and haven't slept properly since then :/
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sleep
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Wow, last night's attack was way stronger than the previous ones! I'm very glad that Marli was still awake at the time, so she could talk me through it. Unlike last time I was unable to shrug it off and go back to sleep. I'm actually still feeling the ill effects of the hyperventilation: my muscles are wobbly and my stomach is an utter mess :/
It's obvious that this was brought on by everything that's going on at the moment. My final exams are coming up on Monday, I'm leaving college and I'm going through a lot of hassle with my job(s). In a few days I can tell you more about that last bit, but let's say that not all is "roses and moonlight".
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Yesterday wore me out (Kilala.nl (Cailin Coilleach)) by Cailin Coilleach
Wow! Between yesterday's interviews and my allergies, I'm completely worn out. Stupid allergies D: The interviews went quite nicely though!
In the morning I paid a visit to the
Via Nova College in Utrecht. They're quite modest in size (the current student body weighs in at around 450 and next year's will be around 600) and they're very progressive in their didactics. I had a great talk with one of their team leaders and we're going to try and find a position that would be suitable for me. We're also exploring the
SOS (Samen op Scholen) project, which would offer me the opportunity to work and study at the same time. I'm really enthused about the
Via Nova!
My chat with Remco Verhoef of
Red Five was rather fruitful! He's going to compile a list of tasks that they've had for a long while and that they'd like to hand over to a freelance admin. This ought to give me a few interesting jobs to fill any holes I'll have in my income. Besides, it'll be nice to at least stay involved with IT a -little- bit.
Finally, my chat at the
SG Maarsbergen was short but sweet. Unfortunately the person I was meeting had to cancel our interview, due to personal circumstances. He did have about fifteen minutes to show me around the school though. Seriously, this is the kind of school that I wanted to go to as a kid: all kinds of beautiful machinery that reeks of diesel, large kitchens and bakeries and a few nicely stocked workshops. I'd love to teach maths over there, but unfortunately all they can offer me are one or two internships. I'm not going to write them off though, simply because their school seems awesome :D
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Two hours of fitful sleep started off my day. I got most of the bills done by 4am, and I have a few more to go. Then I have to balance the checkbook. Oy.
Actually, I was decided to go to bed at around 3am, but I was having a kind of mild anxiety attack over bills (even though nothing is actually worse than it's been since on average since 2000... it's weird) and didn't get to sleep until maybe around 4. I even took a shower to calm down.
I got up at 6am, like normal, and since I had only taken a shower two hours earlier, I didn't need to take one again. And I was actually awake and alert for most of the early morning like I had gotten my usual 6 hours of sleep. I wasn't tired until about 9:30, and then it hit me all at once. I drank some coffee, but my stomach had shut down again, and so coffee just sat in my stomach fermenting.
But thanks to many shifts with FanTek security back in the day, I remembered that when coffee doesn't work, try lots and lots of water (thanks Tad). At the very least, you will have to stay active to drink the water and run to the bathroom all the time to pee, but it somehow will wake you up eventually... or at least stabilize those blahs one gets when one only has a few hours of sleep. And the water is effectively neutralizing that acidic coffee.
Still... I am going to bed early tonight for sure.
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Really. I am posting this to myself in the future, and thank God for spelling correction because I am making a mistake about every 3 words or so.
When I wake up, I can barely function. I can't do simple math, typing and writing is very difficult, and I come off as crabby because everything, every sensation hurts a little. Lights, sounds, and even smells make me irritated. I vaguely recall this happens most mornings I have to get up on weekdays. I can also recall that I only remember about 20-40% of anything that I do, say, or hear.
Literally, many mornings I "wake up" either at work or on the Metro with little to no recollection on how I got there, only a vague sense of events. I have been told I carry on normal conversations and do mostly normal things.
It's a little scary, like I have a double life. And my other life is dull.
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I am so sleepy (Punkadyne Labs (Punkwalrus))
I was up until 3am with a work-related migration. While the work itself was simple and pretty much worked, it took a long time, and required some specific repetitive tasks in a specific order. Move this, not that, run this, remove this from there, add this to here, add this to pool, remove from old pool, specify IP from pool on new site... etc. if you screwed up the order, a cascading failure would occur and that would be very hard to fix.
Most of the time was due to a slow connection from one server to another, about 9kb/sec on average. This made it more difficult to pay attention and keep track of what step you were on.
In other news, my personal remote server (in our data center; a freebie perk) died. Man... this news won't affect anything, unless you like generating Prune Bran scripts and like
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takayla's emoticons. I am building a new one; that hardware always did suck and I really think it's my fault for buying an el cheapo motherboard (it used to be
takayla's desktop, and never did work properly). It's being replaced by a black monolith of a generic Dell I somehow ended up with. I am also done with Fedora as a distro; it updates too quickly and becomes unsupported within two upgrades. It's being reformatted with CentOS (a far more stable, enterprise like system with a Red Hat base).
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I know that many of us, especially pals on my f-list, have trouble waking up. I also hear from time to time, tales of hitting the snooze button in your sleep and not knowing it. Today I heard someone unplugged their alarm clock in their sleep. I would go on about how this is indicative of having the wrong sleep habits, diet, and staying up until 12:30am to watch what you stored on the TiVo even though you have to be up by 7, but hey, I am not here to lecture.
What you all need is a bomb clock.
Here's a clock that you have to be mentally awake enough to defuse like a bomb in a Bruce Willis film.
Or, you could have an alarm clock that
runs away and hides from you, or even better,
launches itself in the air and flies around your room, scaring your pets as well as forcing you to get up and chase it.
But this is what some of you may need,
an alarm clock that is loud, vibrates, and flashes. This may not wake you up, but will annoy your sleeping partner to the point where THEY will wake your ass up.
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Wow! Today's the first day of school and it already feels rather different! I went to bed around 2130, read for an hour, then slept like a brick. And I woke around 0700, instead of the usual 0600 on workdays. This actually feels rather nice! Combine that with yesterday and I'm feeling rather relaxed!
You see, yesterday I was feeling really worked up because I hadn't studied yet, nor done any of my
maths revision like I said I would. Too much time had gone into this site's redesign and after that I was just too busy socially. Of course, getting worked up in this case was counter productive: how much could I do in just a few hours?
So instead I decided to follow the sage advice of my wiffums and some of my friends: I relaxed. After taking Marli to work I went back to bed, read a lot, slept a bit and chomped away half a tube of Pringles. So yea, it may have been a "horrible" evening, but IMHO it was "great".
I'm sorry that I had to blow of Peter's invitation for a walk though. He was reaching out to me, but I didn't go. I'll go and visit them this week...
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Great. I woke up hyperventilating,
again. I really hate that burning sensation and the pounding heart. Especially when it disturbs a great nap. Now I'm feeling crappy this morning :/
Luckily Marli was on top of things (I love how she's always very much together in a "panic" situation) and got me a plastic bag to breathe in. The crappy thing is that, when you're still between waking and sleeping, breathing into a bag for ten minutes gets hard. I usually give up after a minute.
Ah well... The whole episode lasted about ten to fifteen minutes. After that the burning had subside enough for me to fall asleep again.
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Hay fever out in force (Kilala.nl (Cailin Coilleach)) by Cailin Coilleach
Aww man... ;_;
My hay fever hit hard yesterday, combined with a mild cold and now I'm completely clogged, leaky, sneezy, coughy and overall ill. Which means another night without sleep. Fsck.
I'll try to wear myself out so I can fall asleep... Or something.
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ow
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I don't know what it is, but the last few days (maybe a week) I've been sleeping real badly. It takes me way too long to fall asleep and when I eventually do I sleep very lightly. I don't get well rested, I wake up at least three times each night and I wake up way too early. Case in point: tonight. I've been awake for half an hour now, feeling tired but not sleepy. Seeing how I went to bed around 23:30 I really haven't had enough sleep yet. :/
Let's hope that, when
the festival madness is over, my sleeping goes back to normal.
EDIT:
I'm gonna make some warm milk and some tea, then put on NBC or CNN for some reeeeeally boring TV and hope that I'll fall asleep on the couch. *yawn*
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Have you ever seen connection in the SHOW PROCESSLIST output which is in “Sleep” state for a long time and you have no idea why this would happen ?
Tags: mysql, sleep, process
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