And again, but the pattern is becoming clear (Kilala.nl (Cailin Coilleach)) by Cailin Coilleach

Yeah, I'm fairly sure now that the whole hyperventilation deal is my subconscious' way of expressing anxiety or stress. I mean, it's a bit obvious right? One day before my first exams I get an attack. Yeah...

I just wonder why the hell it originally developed this trick. The first time was years back, when I didn't like my job. Since then I've been making improvements to my life, but still they happen. Weird.

I'm just glad that Marli was still awake at that hour, so she stood by me. I could've handled it myself, but it's safer to let her know what's up.



Posted in: anxiety , hyperventilation , panic , stress

Big career changes: getting anxious (Kilala.nl (Cailin Coilleach)) by Cailin Coilleach

Last night, as I was trying to fall asleep, something suddenly dawned on me. I was feeling anxiety, or even fear about making my career switch!

This is the first time in years that I've felt anxious about an undertaking, because I might actually not be able to do it. I know that I love maths and I know that love teaching people. But there's no guarantee for me that I will actually succeed at my college degree.

And you know what?

It feels great!

It's been years since I didn't feel like I could easily tackle a task! Or knowing that I could at least wing it. Nope, this is for real! I love it :3

Posted in: anxiety , career change , career switch , omg